Mai

mai... this isnt fair. you didnt have to go yet. you are now and always will be one of my closest friends. I will continue to cherish your friendship as I always have. I will miss you so much. I am so sorry that I couldnt do anything, while everyone else gave you up for dead I still held on and believed that you would pull through. I feel so helpless, so insignificant, that all I could do was place flowers at your door step. I am so sorry mai, that I didnt get to say good by. if I had known that the last time we talked would be our parting words, I- I dont know. I feel like my whole world is upside down. like this is a bad dream that I cant wake up from.

but through all this. I am glad. I am glad that you no longer have to suffer.
you know, it was raining when I left you those flowers.. God is so mellow dramatic some times...
God I miss you mai. good by my friend. fare well.